Finding me

Assalamualaikum.

I feel like writing about my name for this post. Why? Hmm, because why not ngeh ngeh. Pardon me, my own space though.

When I was a child, waAllahi I kept asking my parents why named me "Nur 'Izzati Liyana"? Why there is a phostropy (') before I? Why there are two Zs and not only one? A pure, innocent child I was who started to discover new things. (Now flaws everywhere sobss)

Since I found my name was quite weird (during that unmatured time), I insisted to write my name on each school books as Nur Izati Liyana. Without (') and only one Z. So tak matured kan.

Alhamdulillah, currently I could say that I love my name because it is me even though it may sound common. To have (') and double Z in my name I could say an uniqueness that differs me from others. Haha acah sgt. Seronok kan jadi unik. Tapi semua org now nak jadi lawa, putih. Then what makes us unique from each other? (Ehh! Sasar tajuk pulak)

Apart from the spelling, I tend to start appreciating 'Liyana'. Yes, I admit that I'm comfortable with 'Izzati' because I can feel that it blends well in me (not in kemuliaan meaning because tak mulia pung). But for certain reason, I am struggling to find Liyana (kelembutan, kehalusan) in me. Why I gegeh nak carik Liyana is because tak nak lahhh jadi manusia tak seindah nama. Indeed, nama nih pun amanah kan.

Doa kan I meet Liyana, before someone else meet other Liyana. Ayat pelik who cares. Adios.