Besarkan hati please

Assalamualaikum. Alhamdulillah minggu nih berkesempatan nak merasa nikmat hujung minggu. Tapi lagi dua minggu jea pun nak struggle ada kelas time weekend since it comes to the end soon. Macam aku sorang jea yang sedih sebab nak habis dah. Haha hati tisu kenod help (despite org duk cakap aku garang sobss)

Actually what I'm trying to luah here is related to rezeki. This sounds cheesy but nahh it is real though haha. Excuse me.

I always tell a friend of mine that if someone wants to know about each of us (kata mudahnya merisik info), she will be the best person and so do I. Yelaaaa, bertahun kot stay together. She knew my flaws (too obvious I guess haha sobs). I do know hers (fikir sat)

But somehow I did tell her that I'm afraid to let her be the middle person (baca: org tengah) since so many cases happened tuptup fall in love dgn org tgh. Insekyo. Lagi jahat, she made a joke yg maybe I am the reason for her to meet her Jodoh lol. So unacceptable.

Then, I realised that everything has been planned by Allah. Yes, it can happen that I may be the reason she meets her soulmate or etc. But who am I to question what Allah has decided for His creatures?

"...and it may be you dislike a thing while it is good for you, and it may be that you love a thing while it is evil for you, and Allah knows while you do not know." (Baqarah : 216)

I do believe that if it is stated yours, no matter how hard other people try to steal, it will remain as yours. And yes, otherwise. So, nothing to worry kann. Chill Liyana haha. But now, seek love from Him before 'him'. Okay enough with this cheesy talk. Let's back on track. Doa kannn.

Finding me

Assalamualaikum.

I feel like writing about my name for this post. Why? Hmm, because why not ngeh ngeh. Pardon me, my own space though.

When I was a child, waAllahi I kept asking my parents why named me "Nur 'Izzati Liyana"? Why there is a phostropy (') before I? Why there are two Zs and not only one? A pure, innocent child I was who started to discover new things. (Now flaws everywhere sobss)

Since I found my name was quite weird (during that unmatured time), I insisted to write my name on each school books as Nur Izati Liyana. Without (') and only one Z. So tak matured kan.

Alhamdulillah, currently I could say that I love my name because it is me even though it may sound common. To have (') and double Z in my name I could say an uniqueness that differs me from others. Haha acah sgt. Seronok kan jadi unik. Tapi semua org now nak jadi lawa, putih. Then what makes us unique from each other? (Ehh! Sasar tajuk pulak)

Apart from the spelling, I tend to start appreciating 'Liyana'. Yes, I admit that I'm comfortable with 'Izzati' because I can feel that it blends well in me (not in kemuliaan meaning because tak mulia pung). But for certain reason, I am struggling to find Liyana (kelembutan, kehalusan) in me. Why I gegeh nak carik Liyana is because tak nak lahhh jadi manusia tak seindah nama. Indeed, nama nih pun amanah kan.

Doa kan I meet Liyana, before someone else meet other Liyana. Ayat pelik who cares. Adios.

Getting older

Assalamualaikum. Mat ri ye (Selamat Hari Raya). Happy tak dengan prestasi Ramadhan 1437H nih? Ramadhan goals achieve tak? (Silent cry) But the most menyayat hati ialah sejurus Ramadhan tinggal kan kita, kembali pada Fitrah ke kita nih? Each of u has the answer kan. Moga kita bukan dlm golongan yang miskin yang mana Ramadhan tidak membuahkan sebarang amal, Aamiin.

Indeed, Alhamdulillah I reached 22 years old a day before Raya. Motip mention? Hmm, sebab I just did some reflection on myself. Hidup 22 tahun nih, jalan yang ditempuh konon onak berduri tuh been blessed by Allah tak? Did I really pulun cari redha Nya? Tbh, lately, I got distracted with Dunia. Takut, kot ngalit (baca: leka) terus dapat penyakit Wahn (cinta kan Dunia). Boleh nak cinta Dunia tapi jangan TERLALU cinta. Tuh bahaya. Cinta kan buta (Roll eyes)

Moga aku back to origin, semat kan dlm hati, otak yang the main reason aku diciptakan hanya untuk Beribadat kat Allah. Jadi, pandangan yg paling utama aku patut kisah ialah ALLAH. Moga para Malaikat kat Langit mengenali. W'Alam.