Growing up

I was scrolling my gallery (since I was lost doing nothing). To know the facts that I'm growing up, it hurts myself. Internally. From having a clear face till I couldn't even bear to look for my own face.  Puberty hits me wrongly I guess haha. Meanwhile, my same age friends turn to be so pretty years by years.

Astaghfirullah. I keep telling my mom everytime I feel down and left out for being an ugly black duck (no idea why i chose duck), she knew how I feel as it is a very normal situation for a young lady to look beautiful. Not for the sake of attention. But for self confidence. Still, she has no clue how to solve my problem. I had a very sensitive skin which I can't predict when the itchy will come and go. My mom keeps telling me that this may be one of the ways Allah wants to bring me closer to Him by asking for His helps to cure me. Indeed, it may be true.

Knowing that Allah doesn't even care about the appearance of His creature is a relief for me. But, in my daily life, I have to meet lots of people which I can't avoid to. I have no choices but to face it with fake confidence.

My mom did tell me to not focus on my problem or flaws but count my blessing so I get distracted and thank Him. True. Afraid, I may forget to be a grateful believer. Being born as a Muslim was the most blessings ever, Alhamdulillah.

Pray for me to keep moving on the right path towards Him. Allah knows best.

Weak human.

Titisan akhir

Assalamualaikum. Malam nih dah masuk Ramadhan yg ke 21. Apa khabar iman memasing? (Jawap dlm hati)

Tak lama lagi Ramadhan dah nak berangkat pulang. Sehabis daya ke aku berjuang bersamanya ? Atau aku langsung tak endah akan kedatangan jugak kepergian nya ? (bukan aku please 😭)

Ramadhan nih sebaik baik peluang utk makhluk bernama manusia yg nak makin dekat dengan Allah since takde intermediaries (Syaiton) yg akan goda atau tarik kita jauh dari Allah. Maka rugi lah manusia yg sia sia kan peluang berharga dan biar kan Ramadhan tinggal kan kita berserta dosa yg tidak berkurang. Lagi sadis dari berbuka makan nasi dgn telur goreng jea weh.

Banyak kan berdoa. Semoga kita antara mereka mereka yg beruntung yg mana segala dosa dosa nya diampun kan oleh Allah. Dannn jauh lebih baik kalau dpt kekal istiqamah beramal dgn kebaikan selepas Ramadhan.

Allahumma balighna fi Lailatul Qadr.

W'Alam.

Positivism

Assalamualaikum dan Ramadhan Kareem.

Alhamdulillah dah masuk hari ketiga kita dengan Ramadhan, moga amal masih dan sedang menggemuk lagi insyaAllah.

Alhamdulillah jugak, dah masuk hari kelima aku undergo training dengan SC. WaAllahi, penat sebab start semalam till next 15days, aku tak cuti weh. Direct class. Kau rasa ? (Acah sgt, ada kau) But atleast, the good thing is bulan Ramadhan nih takde lah aku lalai dengan benda lagha sgt, nak scroll twitter or facebook pun tak dan. Update blog nih pun sebab nak rehat sat lepas berbuka after maghrib.

Actually, the reason why I write this post is to positive my negative vibes. Why? Hmm. Ptg tadi, kelas habis at 430PM but aku sampai rumah at 630PM due to heavy traffic, hazard report, car stopped at shoulder and bla bla bla (apa waze cakap). Mungkin aku tahu atau tak, yang traffic jam and KL are so ngam together but still aku tak bolehhhhh. Dah tuh, bila dah elok selamat parking nearby to rumah (despite my usual parking pun kena curik dgn motor), I noticed yang pintu belakang calar. PANJANGGGGGGGGG 😭 Faham tak how I should feel then ? This is the second time though.

Dah tuh, aku nih sejenis manusia yg almost OCD, so that kind of calar yg bukan dari tgn aku, are being so distractive. It hurts. Setelah beberapa minit disakiti, aku mcm, mungkin Allah substituted calar so aku tak kena rempuh atau pun langgar dengan kereta lain. Mungkin jugak kifarah dosa.

Kan semua benda yg berlaku tiada kebetulan. Every single things has been planned by Him, the Best planner. Cuma kita sendiri as manusia yg kena betul betul yakin dengan aturanNya. InsyaAllah bila kita bersyukur, Allah bagi lebih kannnnnn. W'Alam.

Okay lahhh, gtg tak nak sia sia kan Ramadhan.